How does that work when you say you are Fat, as I am very big, it is something I really hate about myself, but due to life, and things out of my control it is what it is right now. It scares me to say how much I weight, because I'm afraid I will automatically be rejected, but at the same time, i don't want the door to be shut in my face if I showed up. One time I called, and it was just for a massage, it was one of my very first ones, and I have a big body dismorphia problem, so this was going to be a battle for me. Everything was arranged, and I said everything is all set you are ok with me being a big guy, and he said yes of course, how big are you and I told him, he said well it will be extra, because it is much harder to work on bigger guys. I told he to go you know what. Honestly he could have given the crappiest massage in the world, I just wanted to feel a man's touch for the first time, I didn't care how well he did it. He was very sexy I thought, but out side looks, unfortunately don't always get you the best personalities. a good personality will always win over looks every time.